STPM恐懼症。

最近﹐我嚴重患上了STPM恐懼症。
晚上﹐睡不著﹐一直以為功課沒寫完。(好啦﹐實際上﹐有些功課是沒寫完的。)
早上﹐凌晨四點醒﹐想說要起來讀書﹐結果沒有一天是讀成的。

天啊﹗我還有兩個星期多久要考試了﹗

目標﹐其實已經確定了﹐在農曆新年時。
可是﹐當開始讀書時﹐發現很多東西都不記得了。
開始對STPM有恐懼﹐不管考得好不好﹐我還是得盡力去讀。

有沒有見過人家讀數學的﹖
對﹗真的是要讀的﹗

以前﹐考數學及英文是我最拿手的﹐很少開書來看﹐連高數也是一樣。
現在﹐考數學還得開書來讀﹑背﹐連考英文都覺得害怕。
以前的英文只要用寫的就好﹐作文題目都不會很難﹐就算有Oral,也是事前準備才上場的。
現在的英文(或則稱為MUET)﹐作文題目都沒那麼簡單﹐而且沒得選。我現在最怕的就是Speaking﹐有時候拿到自己不喜歡的題目﹐不是腦袋空空想不出point﹐就是想不到適合的字來表達。

我已經慢慢的可以適應生物學跟化學﹐雖然化學對我來講還是不簡單。



但是﹐我沒有後悔過讀中六。
因為﹐沒有讀中六的話﹐我的生活不會比以前精彩。
因為﹐沒有讀中六的話﹐我就不會轟轟烈烈的愛過他﹐也不會被傷的撕心裂肺﹐更不會成長。
因為﹐沒有讀中六的話﹐我就不會認識那些讓我成長的人。

就算﹐STPM是最難的考試(聽說)﹔
就算﹐今年的中六制度會換成跟A-level一樣是Semester式的﹔(不過﹐看回自己之前的成勣﹐要是我的是Semester式的話﹐我應該可以退學了。=X)
就算﹐功課很多﹑生活很忙﹐我還是不會後悔。


2012會不會是世界末日﹖
我說﹐管他的﹗

Valentine's Day.

家人送我的第一份情人節禮物﹐很感動。

謝謝你們﹐愛我的每個人。 =]

這個新年﹐非常忙。

有米有人想我﹖rf

話說﹐我這個農曆新年非常的忙﹐比平時上課的時候更加沒有空。

在農曆新年前夕﹐我就跟我媽媽從檳城流浪跑到新山到親戚家短住﹐順便慶祝新年。
在新山的那幾天﹐都是過著吃飽睡﹑睡飽吃的生活。
由於﹐我親戚家沒有體重機﹐讓我非常懷疑我的身形到底有沒有向橫發展...
(我不想再見到六字頭先生啊~~)

可是hor,新年噢~~身為華人的一份子﹐家裡人肯定會煮很多“好料”來慶祝。
既然﹐我沒有幫忙煮﹐那至少幫忙吃不算是件錯事吧﹖
(開始自我催眠...)

請注意﹗以下的圖片可能會引起您的食慾﹗減肥者﹐請自行無視掉以下的圖片﹗

這是在三十晚時吃的團圓飯﹐有雞﹑鴨﹑魚﹑菜﹑五香卷﹑五花肉及湯~
我阿姨的廚藝真的是一流啊﹗雖然﹐有時候她會煮過頭﹐也曾失敗過。
所以hor~~每次新年去她家﹐都會幫我們增加體重。
(可是﹐下一年再去的時候﹐她就會投訴說你好象長肉了。其實﹐兇手就是她﹗)

新年最開心的就是跟表哥見面﹐我們一年才見一次。
當然﹐最無聊的就是一整天都呆在家裡等發霉。

好不容易﹐度過了新年的學校假期﹐回去學校後繼續忙碌的生活。

結果﹐開學後的星期五﹐我又要飛去吉隆坡參加堂哥的結婚典禮。
原本﹐是跟我媽媽約好一起去的﹐結果我媽臨時發生一些事情﹐所以她沒有去。
我就一個人浩浩蕩蕩的提著行李上來飛機﹐來到了吉隆坡。
又是一段無聊的日子﹐去了吉隆坡﹐我又幫不上什么忙﹐只好一直睡覺。

取新娘咯~~

 最讓我期待的﹐也是最讓我失望的﹐就是喝囍酒的那天。
本來是非常開心的﹐結果當天的食物讓我失望﹐那種失望是筆墨也不能形容的。

當晚的服裝

看﹖笑到幾開心。

 不過﹐總算順利的舉行﹐所以不開心的事情就別去想了~




最後﹐想告訴大家。
這個情人節﹐我不孤單﹐因為。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

有五月天的陪伴﹗
對﹗他們的專輯﹐我終於等到了~~ XD

新年﹐你快樂麼﹖ New year, are you happy?

新年剪了個很呆的頭髮。Cut a nood hair for new year. .__.

大家好~不知不覺﹐已經新年了。
Hello everyone. Without our notice, the new year has come.

你們﹐快樂麼﹖
Are you happy?

今天是開學的第三天﹐我已經忙到想死了。
Today is the 3rd day my school reopen, I am busy until the max.

好累好累﹐但是我很享受。
Very very tired, but I enjoy it.



相信跟我熟的人/有看我部落格的人都知道﹐我在去年過得很不好。
I believe those who knows me well/follows my blog will notice that Year 2011 treat me badly.

非常的不好﹗ 原以為找到一個可以相信的人﹐結果卻被背叛。
Very badly! When you though you found someone you can believe, but you had been betray



當時的心痛感﹐我還記得。
I still can remember the painfulness that I felt.

雖然﹐我已經放下了﹐但不代表我已經忘記。
Even though I have let go, doesn't mean that I will forget.

如果可以﹐我希望可以喝一杯忘情水﹐把他忘掉。
If can, I hope there is a cup of forget-love-water for me to drink, so that I can forget him.

但是﹐世界上沒有這種東西﹐所以算了﹗
But, since there is no such thing in this world, so never mind.



現在﹐我跟他已經完全沒有聯絡了﹐不想也沒這個必要。
Now, I have lost contact with him, don't feel like and don't need to.

沒有他﹐我還是過得很開心。每天跟朋友們膩在一起吃﹑喝﹑玩﹑樂﹑讀書等﹐很忙碌。
Without him, I still can have my happy life. I can have a great time with my friends to enjoy my life.



今年的新年﹐我很快樂﹐因為我認識了新朋友﹐跟朋友們的關係也越來越好。
This new year, I am very happy, cause I knew some new friends, and the bond between me and my friends are getting stronger.

開始期待以後的日子﹐雖然我知道會更加忙碌﹐學校義賣會﹑考試﹑生活營﹑學校功課等。
I start to look forward the future, even though I know I will be more busy with school charity week, exams, camp, homeworks and so on.

但是﹐我今年要好好的過﹐把握每一天﹑每一分﹐甚至每一秒﹐都要好好的活。
But, I want to fully enjoy this year, hold everyday` every moment tightly in my hands.

該讀書/做功課時﹐專心的做﹔該玩的時候﹐瘋狂的玩。
When it's time to study, concentrate; When it's time to play, Play like a crazy person.

2012年﹐我不要浪費掉﹗
I don't want to waste my 2012.

二零一一年度總報告。Final report of 2011

今天﹐就是二零一一年的最後一天了。明天﹐將會是全新的一天﹐全新的一年。


二零一一年﹐發生了很多事情﹐時間也過得非常快﹐快得讓我的心臟有點支撐不了。



年頭﹐我還是個打工族。
在打工的地方認識了我的幹哥﹐他可以說是唯一一個願意教我怎樣賣眼鏡的人。
如果沒有他﹐我就不可能會賣出我的第一副眼鏡。
但是﹐那幾個月的打工經驗讓我悶得想撞牆自殺。

三月的時候﹐到學校拿SPM成勣﹐帶著忐忑不安的心情進去﹐抱著歡樂的心情出來。
原因無他﹐考出來的成勣超越我平時的表現﹐我又改造了自己的歷史。

過後﹐聽說可以去查看中六的入校資格﹐知道自己可以入理科班後雀躍不已。
之後﹐帶著興奮的心情寫辭職信﹐真的是一面寫一面笑的那種。



年中﹐回到學校生活﹐我的打工生涯也暫時告一段落。
第一天到學校的第一個問題--迷路。
因為﹐以前從來沒到過﹐結果整天不知道自己的班在哪裡...

後來﹐跟班上的同學一起舉辦教師節﹐跟大家的感情開始變好。

放假後﹐我到圖書館應徵圖書館員。
面試的時候很緊張﹐結果並沒有想像中那樣差。
放假後﹐我正式被錄取為圖書館員。

在七月的時候﹐圖書館員有一個生活營﹐當然我也有參加。
不知道哪個王八蛋誰講只要走十分鐘就會到的﹐結果我們走了30分鐘都還沒到。
到了生活營﹐學會了很多東西﹐也開始了瘋狂的中六生活。
第一次﹐跟著大家一起瘋狂的搖擺﹐唱歌﹐第一次放肆的玩。
也是在那個生活營認識了他。

生活營後﹐我和我的朋友因為某些事情所以吵架了。
然後﹐我開始自我保護﹐當別人開始亂傳我跟某某某在一起的時候﹐我就會罵到對方無話可說。
其實﹐我想保護我們的友誼。

之後﹐我和他開始曖昧。



年終﹐我和他的曖昧正式結束。
心痛﹑傷心﹑失望﹐我都在短短的一個星期經歷過。
哭著睡著﹐睡醒後又再哭﹐眼睛變得很丑。
但是﹐我也在短短的五天讓自己痊癒﹐因為他不值得。

過後﹐我做了一個很對的決定﹐就是約一些比較熟的朋友去逛街。
謝謝你們﹐你們所做的一切讓我感動。
當天晚上﹐還到我的朋友家開燒烤派對﹐認識了一些朋友﹐也讓我們的感情更加好。
我還喝了13%的紅酒﹐感覺很爽﹗
結果當晚興奮過頭﹐很夜才可以入眠。

今年﹐過得非常的快。
但是﹐我很慶幸我認識了你們﹐也很慶幸我把他放下了。

謝謝﹐我愛你們。

路。Pathway

Pathway.

今年的聖誕節﹐我過得非常的開心。
This year, I had a happy Merry Christmas.

我在昨天去到了1st Avenue廣場湊熱鬧﹐因為我的教堂在那裡有演出。
Yesterday, I went to 1st Avenue to see my church's members performance.

之後﹐我還跟媽媽去了別的教堂。
After that, I went to another church with my mum.




不懂為甚麼﹐我覺得今年的主題是“路”。
Well, I don't know why, I think this year Christmas theme is "Pathway".

在聖誕節的前幾天﹐我的朋友在面子書上寫了一首歌“God will make a way.”。
Just a few days before Christmas, my friend posted a song lyrics named "God will make a way"

在昨晚﹐去教堂時﹐牧師講道的時候﹐也是說到路。
Yesterday night, the other church's pastor talks about pathway.

今天早上去教堂﹐牧師也是說到路。
Today morning, my church pastor talks about it also.




人生有很多的路要走﹐很多選擇要做。
In life, there are a lot of pathways to walk, and a lot of choice to choose.

很多時候﹐我們都用自己的看法﹑想法來做決定﹐更多時候我們都被自己的慾望控制。
Many times, we used our own knowledge, logic to make decision, and most of the times, we were control by our own desire.

往往﹐我們都因為自作聰明﹐而走錯路。
Because of our own think oneself clever, we choose the wrong pathways.

我們都為了我們所做錯得決定而自怨自艾。
We will feel full of remorse for the wrong decisions.

但是如果這條錯得路可以讓你成長的話﹐這路也不算錯完。
But, if the wrong pathway can make you grow, then it wasn't that bad at all.




如果﹐我們都願意放下自我﹑自大﹑自以為是﹐而跟隨神的話。
If, we can let go of our ego, arrogance and self-righteous, then follow God.

我們就會減少走錯路的機率﹐而且可以順利達到我們想要的結果﹐當然過程也得享受。
We can decrease the chances of choosing the wrong pathway, and can achieve our dreams smoothly,  of cause we need to enjoy the process also.





感想神﹐我今年兜了一大圈的錯路﹐但是我卻得到了啟示。
Thank God, this year I had walked a lot of wrong pathways, but I have revealed from God.

而且成長了很多﹐也學到了很多。
And I grow a lot, learnt a lot.

感想神。
Thank You, God.

最後一次。Last time

這將會是我最後一次為你寫日記。
This will be my last post about you.

我知道﹐我們並沒有在一起。
I know we were not together.

但是﹐我對你是真心的。
But, I am wholehearted through you.

所以現在你幸福了﹐我當然會祝福你。
So, now you have found your happiness, I will bless you.

祝你幸福。
God bless.

謝謝你曾經所帶給我的一切。
Thank you for everything you have gave me.

最後一次說愛你。
Last time to tell you that I love you.

我希望﹐我們還會是好朋友。
I hope we will still be best friend.
=]

朋友。Friends♥

昨天﹐與一位很久不見的朋友見面。
Yesterday, I had a gathering with my old friend.

我們見面後聊了很多﹐從生活聊到動漫﹐好痛快。
We chat a lot, form life until anime, damn fun.

多久了﹖沒和她一起盡情的聊天。
Has been how long I didn't chat with her?


還記得﹐當初我們是兩個完全沒有交集的人。
I still remember, at first we were two parallel lines.

因為﹐我是後來才上到那一班的﹐而她是以前就在那班讀。
Because I went to the second class later, but she study in that class since last time.

要不是有一天﹐我的朋友們都逃學﹐全班只有我們兩個華人的話﹐我想我們可能一輩子都不會有交集吧﹖
If not because of that day, I friends skipped school and the whole class only left two of us who are Chinese, maybe we won't talk to each other for our whole life.


我跟她的興趣不一樣﹐除了星座一樣以外。
We don't have the same hobby, except our horoscope.

可是﹐我們卻可以坦誠的聊天﹐而且一拍即合。
But, we can chat open heart, and we hit it off

從此﹐她就成了我的其中一位好朋友。
Since that day, she became one of my best friends.


說真的﹐我的朋友並不多﹐但是也不會很少。
Honestly, I don't have many friends, but not very less also.

不過﹐只要是我認為是好朋友的人﹐我都會無條件的付出。
But, once I consider a person as a best friend, I will unconditionally pay

因為﹐我珍惜他們。 =]
Because I treasure them.

朋友﹐並不是多就好。 

Friends, doesn't mean that more is good.  

而是在你有困難時候﹐願意幫你一把﹔ 

But when you are in trouble, they willing to help you; 

在你傷心時﹐願意聽你哭訴﹑陪你哭﹔ 

When you are sad, they willing to listen to you or cry with you; 

在你受傷的時候﹐願意幫你包扎傷口﹔ 

When you are hurt, they willing to heal you; 

在你忘記他/她的時候﹐他/她還會記得你。 

And when you forget he/she, but he/she will still remember you.

Lighthouse

你願意成為我的燈塔麼﹖

Will you be my lighthouse?

你會一直在那裡﹐然後等我回來麼﹖

Will you be there for me and wait for me to come back?

你會指引我回家的路麼﹖

Will you lead my way back home?

你會陪著我一直到最後麼﹖

Will you always be with me until the end?

今天﹐想和大家分享這首歌--西域男孩的[燈塔]

Today, I would like to share this song with all of you-- [Lighthouse] from Westlife.

This kind of love is more than a lifeline

For a man as weak as me 

Who has no self belief

This kind of love is more than amazing

For a man who lost his way

Who thought it was too late

How did the sea

How did the sea

How did the sea

Get so rough

I would've drowned

I would've drowned

I would've drowned

If you hadn't given me your love

You're the light of the dark

You're the seat in the park

You're the Lighthouse

You're the Lighthouse

That I need

You're the key to the door

You're the port in the storm

And I need to find the shore

And I can't swim any more

You always guide me back to the solid ground

You're my Lighthouse

This kind of love is more than a feeling

For a man who really tried

I get all choked up each time

You say you love me You could've walked away

Could've give my problems back

Could've of left, you took the chance

How did the waves 

How did the waves

How did the waves

Get so high

I would've died

I would've died

I would've died

If you hadn't loved me just in time

You're the light of the dark

You're the seat in the park

You're the Lighthouse

You're the Lighthouse

That I need

You're the key to the door

You're the port in the storm

And I need to find the shore

Cause I can't swim any more

You always guide me back to the solid ground

(Yeah)

You're my Lighthouse

Yeah

I owe it all to you

Everything I have right now

I owe it all to you

Everything I didn't have you found

Everytime

Take me back to you

Oh

You're the light of the dark

You're the seat in the park

You're the Lighthouse

You're the Lighthouse

I need

Oh

You're the key to the door

You're the port in the storm

And I need to find the shore

Cause I can't swim any more

You always guide me back to the solid ground

You're my Lighthouse

迟来的祝福。The late wishes

今天早上睁开眼睛，无意中看到你的照片。
Morning, when I opened my eyes, I accidentally saw your photo.

＂哎呀！我昨天居然忘了！＂
"Ah! I forgot about it yesterday!"

我的天啊！十一年了，我第一次忘记祝你生日快乐。
OMG! 11th year, it's the first time I forget your birthday.

我在这里祝福你吧～～
I will wish you here, then.

生日快乐哦～～ 阿信。
Happy Birth Day, Ashin.

３６岁了。
36th birthday.

对！你没有看错，这个看起来象１８岁的家伙其实已经３６岁了，可以去骗小妹妹了。
Ya! You are looking at the correct number, this fellow whom looks like 18 years old is actually 36 years old, he can go and cheat the young girls liao. xP

十一年了，我还是一样的爱着你（们？）
I still love you (you all?) at the 11th years.

Oh... It's December.

Hello, everyone.
How's life?
I am kinda busy here... My holidays almost fill with plants, insects and soil?
YES! School project! ISH you! =[
YOU ruined my holidays!
And school homework... on the process... I think. =X
And I need time to study and play!
Yes! You get it, play.
Who don't want to play, enjoy and have fun during holidays? =D
But... I don't think I get a lot of fun doing my school Bio project.
Ok, maybe I get... a bit... But not fully enjoy.

Dear butterflies and dragonflies,
I hate you! Freaking hate you! When I want to catch you, you all flied away.
When I give up, you all fly around me.
What do you want from me? What do you want from me? *singing*
ISH you!

 x x x x x x x

Ok, I think I should stop all the complains, if not it will be an endless post.

Well, It's December.

I can't wait for Christmas... I like the environment of the Christmas.

It's nice, romantic, lovely and sweet.

And I hope to get something as Christmas present also.

Talk about present , SOMEONE still Owe me MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT hor? =X

I hope that December will be a better month for me... And I want some sweet memories!