逃

夜，蒙盖这个世界。
脸上的笑容也被遮住了，很好。
这样，我就不用一直在自我保护了。
心，被掏空似的，感觉不到自己的心跳。
疯了？
或许，希望。
趁现在，逃到没人认识的地方去。
在那里，尽情的做自己。
想睡的时候睡，想笑的时候笑，想哭的时候哭...
暂时的逃离，不算过分吧？

或许我真的累了，好想好好的睡一觉，然后从此长眠。

To My Love♥

I knew you since I was 7, I had fall in love with you from the first time when I saw you.
And now, it's like 12 years from our first met and I still love you.
My love for you keep increasing year per year, month per month and day per day.

I can't stop loving you.

I Love You, from the deep of my heart.

And I will still love you until the end of my life.

♥♥♥

Happy Birthday, Monster.♥

About Her♥ [14th November 2011]

At 14th November 1992, she was born.
She was small and tiny, but now she was big and old.
She grows older every second, which everyone does.
She loves chocolates, manga, her mother, her friends... I mean true friends and also her life.
 Oh... And she loves May Day.
Even though she was quiet emo on the past few days, but she knows that she can't keep wasting her time on emo-ing.
So, she changes her mind and wish to be happier everyday.

She wish that she could be happier everyday.
She wish that she could be healthier everyday.
She wish that she could try her best to do her best.

And...
She wish herself a Happy Birthday.

Next year, should be a better year. =]

*Turn on Radio* *Press Paly* Let's rock the house down!

From my previous post, you can see that I am trying hard to be happy.
Ya.. I am... Until now, I am still trying very very hard to let myself cool down and happy.
Today, I pissed off... by you... Honestly,  I am bit disappointed...
Trying hard to cool down, but failed... I think...
Now, I am not really angry with you, but I am not satisfied with you.
Fine, after I wake up on tomorrow morning, I should be fine.

Well, I brought this MayDay's movie song tracks disc yesterday... Wait... it's 20.11.2011. Not yesterday.
I keep playing the whole disc non-stop to cheer myself up... Does it help?
Ya... It helps a bit... If you come and visit me now, you can see that I am listening to that disc with my head shaking and body moving.
So, it helps.
At least, when I am listening, I won't think back what happened, especially the bad ones.
I mean, you can't really think/ recall/ think back something when your head is shaking like phyco, right? 
Even though I don't know how to dance at all, at least I can move my body...
[DON'T ask me to put video here, I don't want to be one of the jokes... =X]

One of my ways to be happy... I think.
So.. *turn on the radio* *Play the disc* *Rock You* >XD

Over-think Syndrome

Nowadays, I had this over-think Syndrome almost every night. Lot of things crush in my tiny little brain before I could sleep and ended up, I had insomnia.
There is too many things to think... I mean think, ONLY  THINK. Those things which are out of my control make me keep thinking about them non-stop.
Unfortunately, all of them are out of my control, so no matter how many times I keep thinking about them, how complicated I think about them, they are STILL out of my control.
I don't know why... Maybe I wish to control them? I hope that they can happen like how I wish them to happen?
However, they are still OUT OF MY CONTROL.
Because of them, I had rolling on my bed for uncountable times and keep asking myself to sleep for nights.
Worse come to worst, I can't control my mind thinking, I am easily get emo, unhappy, feel sad, can't laugh and so on.
I am making myself and others who care about me tired.
Haiz... SORRY about that. =')
It's time to end this stupid Over-think Syndrome.

Things which are under my control, I will control them nicely. So, I won't regret in future, because it will be too late for me to regret.

Once you have make a decision, there will be NO U-turn after that.

And this is one of the reason why I need a long time to change mind and make decision.

Things which are out of my control, just let it be. I can't change anything, right?
So, no need to worry about them, they don't worth my time.
Thinking something which is out of my control it's just a waste of time and increase the number of grey hair I own...
*Checking hair*
Fine, number of grey hair has increases. =.=

Goodbye, Mr. Emo.
Hello, Mr. Happy, and this time, I will hold you tight and never let you go. =)

And,,, Good night, people. =P