有沒有那麽一滴眼淚，能洗掉後悔，化成大雨降落在回不去的街？
再給我一次機會將故事改寫，還欠了他一生的一句抱歉。

雨快點過，天快點晴

「雨快點過，天快點晴。」

這幾天的情緒低落差點累死了某個笨蛋。
連續六天，他都一直在陪伴著我，明明就忙到半死，卻特地抽時間來陪我。
連續六天，一點小事都會讓我掉淚，可是卻故作堅強、故作沒事的在家人面前哈哈大笑。
（沒辦法，不想讓家人擔心。）
與朋友之間的聊天也沒讓他人察覺我的心情低落，我想我可以去當影后了。（（大誤~

可憐某個笨蛋小鬼，雖然他沒爲了我的事情而茶飯不思。
不過，確實是使盡了渾身解朮來讓我笑。

星期六的時候，他還故意讓我多説話，而故意讓我問問題。
結果，他的心思被大姐姐我看穿，這點讓他有點不爽。
我：“我覺得你好像在強迫我説話。”
小鬼：“算，如果你覺得是這樣的話，那我別説話的好。”
好啦~小鬼，對不起嘛……我也不喜歡這樣的自己。
後來，他卻因爲我的心情不再那麽低落而感到高興。

昨天，他比較累。
（從他回復我的字數，我看得出來。）
結果，他還是繼續陪我，直到昨晚他真的累到只用一字回復我。
我真的服了他，居然可以陪我陪了那麽多天；也很佩服自己可以情緒低落到那麽多天。

昨天，我的智能手機整個hang掉。
不管我怎樣按，也沒有反應，當時我已經做好最壞的打算了。
後來，它突然自己復活，還會若無其事的自己開始充電。
我告訴小鬼后，小鬼說：“那個電話就像你，偶爾會「 坏掉」 ，可是很快就會復原。 =D”
好吧……當下我很感動，很久沒聽到那麽窩心的東西了。

小鬼雖然是小鬼，也不會說什麽甜言蜜語。
不過有時候卻會說一些溫馨的話語，讓我覺得窩心。

是啊……関関難過，関関過。
只要知足，我就會快樂。
只要我走出來了，我就會快樂。
只要做好自己，我就會快樂。

所以，雨會很快的過，然後天也會晴朗回。

Fall into the swirl of memories

Someone said to me:" Don't have to care so much, just like me."
Does that mean that you don't care about how I feel?
Or you just pretend that you care?
Or I rank myself too high up?

Last time, there was a guy said he care, he won't hurt me.
But in the end, I had been left out.
Just like an old toy, been throw away.

I though I am fine now, but the truth is, I look fine.
I look fine, I act fine, but when someone touch the scar, it explodes.
And I need a lot of force to block the blood from flowing through that vessel.

I am scare.
That's why I always doubt to myself that I might mean something to someone.
Because when I though I do mean something to someone, actually I mean nothing to that particular person.

I try to trust.
But I still doubt to myself that others will trust me.

I try to be confidence.
But ended up, I don't feel like myself anymore.

I try my best to smile.
But ended up, I lost my own expression.

I try not to cry.
But when the tears drop, it can't stop.

I try to make myself happy.
But ended up, it's all fake.

"We need to talk more when we meet."

Until that time, I might just hide my scar again.
And pretend that I am fine.
Then, someday, my scar will explode again.
And here we go again.

I want to get out of this swirl... but how?