Saturday, December 31

二零一一年度總報告。Final report of 2011


今天﹐就是二零一一年的最後一天了。明天﹐將會是全新的一天﹐全新的一年。


二零一一年﹐發生了很多事情﹐時間也過得非常快﹐快得讓我的心臟有點支撐不了。



年頭﹐我還是個打工族。
在打工的地方認識了我的幹哥﹐他可以說是唯一一個願意教我怎樣賣眼鏡的人。
如果沒有他﹐我就不可能會賣出我的第一副眼鏡。
但是﹐那幾個月的打工經驗讓我悶得想撞牆自殺。

三月的時候﹐到學校拿SPM成勣﹐帶著忐忑不安的心情進去﹐抱著歡樂的心情出來。
原因無他﹐考出來的成勣超越我平時的表現﹐我又改造了自己的歷史。

過後﹐聽說可以去查看中六的入校資格﹐知道自己可以入理科班後雀躍不已。
之後﹐帶著興奮的心情寫辭職信﹐真的是一面寫一面笑的那種。



年中﹐回到學校生活﹐我的打工生涯也暫時告一段落。
第一天到學校的第一個問題--迷路。
因為﹐以前從來沒到過﹐結果整天不知道自己的班在哪裡...

後來﹐跟班上的同學一起舉辦教師節﹐跟大家的感情開始變好。

放假後﹐我到圖書館應徵圖書館員。
面試的時候很緊張﹐結果並沒有想像中那樣差。
放假後﹐我正式被錄取為圖書館員。

在七月的時候﹐圖書館員有一個生活營﹐當然我也有參加。
不知道哪個王八蛋誰講只要走十分鐘就會到的﹐結果我們走了30分鐘都還沒到。
到了生活營﹐學會了很多東西﹐也開始了瘋狂的中六生活。
第一次﹐跟著大家一起瘋狂的搖擺﹐唱歌﹐第一次放肆的玩。
也是在那個生活營認識了他。

生活營後﹐我和我的朋友因為某些事情所以吵架了。
然後﹐我開始自我保護﹐當別人開始亂傳我跟某某某在一起的時候﹐我就會罵到對方無話可說。
其實﹐我想保護我們的友誼。

之後﹐我和他開始曖昧。



年終﹐我和他的曖昧正式結束。
心痛﹑傷心﹑失望﹐我都在短短的一個星期經歷過。
哭著睡著﹐睡醒後又再哭﹐眼睛變得很丑。
但是﹐我也在短短的五天讓自己痊癒﹐因為他不值得。

過後﹐我做了一個很對的決定﹐就是約一些比較熟的朋友去逛街。
謝謝你們﹐你們所做的一切讓我感動。
當天晚上﹐還到我的朋友家開燒烤派對﹐認識了一些朋友﹐也讓我們的感情更加好。
我還喝了13%的紅酒﹐感覺很爽﹗
結果當晚興奮過頭﹐很夜才可以入眠。

今年﹐過得非常的快。
但是﹐我很慶幸我認識了你們﹐也很慶幸我把他放下了。



謝謝﹐我愛你們。

Sunday, December 25

路。Pathway

Pathway.























今年的聖誕節﹐我過得非常的開心。
This year, I had a happy Merry Christmas.

我在昨天去到了1st Avenue廣場湊熱鬧﹐因為我的教堂在那裡有演出。
Yesterday, I went to 1st Avenue to see my church's members performance.

之後﹐我還跟媽媽去了別的教堂。
After that, I went to another church with my mum.




不懂為甚麼﹐我覺得今年的主題是“路”。
Well, I don't know why, I think this year Christmas theme is "Pathway".

在聖誕節的前幾天﹐我的朋友在面子書上寫了一首歌“God will make a way.”。
Just a few days before Christmas, my friend posted a song lyrics named "God will make a way"

在昨晚﹐去教堂時﹐牧師講道的時候﹐也是說到路。
Yesterday night, the other church's pastor talks about pathway.

今天早上去教堂﹐牧師也是說到路。
Today morning, my church pastor talks about it also.




人生有很多的路要走﹐很多選擇要做。
In life, there are a lot of pathways to walk, and a lot of choice to choose.

很多時候﹐我們都用自己的看法﹑想法來做決定﹐更多時候我們都被自己的慾望控制。
Many times, we used our own knowledge, logic to make decision, and most of the times, we were control by our own desire.

往往﹐我們都因為自作聰明﹐而走錯路。
Because of our own think oneself clever, we choose the wrong pathways.

我們都為了我們所做錯得決定而自怨自艾。
We will feel full of remorse for the wrong decisions.

但是如果這條錯得路可以讓你成長的話﹐這路也不算錯完。
But, if the wrong pathway can make you grow, then it wasn't that bad at all.




如果﹐我們都願意放下自我﹑自大﹑自以為是﹐而跟隨神的話。
If, we can let go of our ego, arrogance and self-righteous, then follow God.

我們就會減少走錯路的機率﹐而且可以順利達到我們想要的結果﹐當然過程也得享受。
We can decrease the chances of choosing the wrong pathway, and can achieve our dreams smoothly,  of cause we need to enjoy the process also.





感想神﹐我今年兜了一大圈的錯路﹐但是我卻得到了啟示。
Thank God, this year I had walked a lot of wrong pathways, but I have revealed from God.

而且成長了很多﹐也學到了很多。
And I grow a lot, learnt a lot.

感想神。
Thank You, God.



Thursday, December 22

最後一次。Last time

這將會是我最後一次為你寫日記。
This will be my last post about you.

我知道﹐我們並沒有在一起。
I know we were not together.

但是﹐我對你是真心的。
But, I am wholehearted through you.

所以現在你幸福了﹐我當然會祝福你。
So, now you have found your happiness, I will bless you.

祝你幸福。
God bless.

謝謝你曾經所帶給我的一切。
Thank you for everything you have gave me.

最後一次說愛你。
Last time to tell you that I love you.

我希望﹐我們還會是好朋友。
I hope we will still be best friend.
=]

Saturday, December 17

朋友。Friends♥












昨天﹐與一位很久不見的朋友見面。
Yesterday, I had a gathering with my old friend.

我們見面後聊了很多﹐從生活聊到動漫﹐好痛快。
We chat a lot, form life until anime, damn fun.

多久了﹖沒和她一起盡情的聊天。
Has been how long I didn't chat with her?


還記得﹐當初我們是兩個完全沒有交集的人。
I still remember, at first we were two parallel lines.

因為﹐我是後來才上到那一班的﹐而她是以前就在那班讀。
Because I went to the second class later, but she study in that class since last time.

要不是有一天﹐我的朋友們都逃學﹐全班只有我們兩個華人的話﹐我想我們可能一輩子都不會有交集吧﹖
If not because of that day, I friends skipped school and the whole class only left two of us who are Chinese, maybe we won't talk to each other for our whole life.


我跟她的興趣不一樣﹐除了星座一樣以外。
We don't have the same hobby, except our horoscope.

可是﹐我們卻可以坦誠的聊天﹐而且一拍即合。
But, we can chat open heart, and we hit it off

從此﹐她就成了我的其中一位好朋友。
Since that day, she became one of my best friends.


說真的﹐我的朋友並不多﹐但是也不會很少。
Honestly, I don't have many friends, but not very less also.

不過﹐只要是我認為是好朋友的人﹐我都會無條件的付出。
But, once I consider a person as a best friend, I will unconditionally pay

因為﹐我珍惜他們。 =]
Because I treasure them.



朋友﹐並不是多就好。 
Friends, doesn't mean that more is good.  
而是在你有困難時候﹐願意幫你一把﹔ 
But when you are in trouble, they willing to help you; 

在你傷心時﹐願意聽你哭訴﹑陪你哭﹔ 
When you are sad, they willing to listen to you or cry with you; 

在你受傷的時候﹐願意幫你包扎傷口﹔ 
When you are hurt, they willing to heal you; 

在你忘記他/她的時候﹐他/她還會記得你。 
And when you forget he/she, but he/she will still remember you.


Sunday, December 11

Lighthouse


你願意成為我的燈塔麼﹖
Will you be my lighthouse?

你會一直在那裡﹐然後等我回來麼﹖
Will you be there for me and wait for me to come back?

你會指引我回家的路麼﹖
Will you lead my way back home?

你會陪著我一直到最後麼﹖
Will you always be with me until the end?

今天﹐想和大家分享這首歌--西域男孩的[燈塔]
Today, I would like to share this song with all of you-- [Lighthouse] from Westlife.


This kind of love is more than a lifeline
For a man as weak as me 
Who has no self belief

This kind of love is more than amazing
For a man who lost his way
Who thought it was too late

How did the sea
How did the sea
How did the sea
Get so rough

I would've drowned
I would've drowned
I would've drowned
If you hadn't given me your love

You're the light of the dark
You're the seat in the park
You're the Lighthouse
You're the Lighthouse
That I need

You're the key to the door
You're the port in the storm
And I need to find the shore
And I can't swim any more
You always guide me back to the solid ground
You're my Lighthouse

This kind of love is more than a feeling
For a man who really tried
I get all choked up each time

You say you love me You could've walked away
Could've give my problems back
Could've of left, you took the chance

How did the waves 
How did the waves
How did the waves
Get so high

I would've died
I would've died
I would've died
If you hadn't loved me just in time

You're the light of the dark
You're the seat in the park
You're the Lighthouse
You're the Lighthouse
That I need



You're the key to the door
You're the port in the storm
And I need to find the shore
Cause I can't swim any more
You always guide me back to the solid ground
(Yeah)
You're my Lighthouse

Yeah
I owe it all to you
Everything I have right now
I owe it all to you
Everything I didn't have you found
Everytime
Take me back to you

Oh


You're the light of the dark
You're the seat in the park
You're the Lighthouse
You're the Lighthouse
I need


Oh

You're the key to the door
You're the port in the storm
And I need to find the shore
Cause I can't swim any more
You always guide me back to the solid ground
You're my Lighthouse









Wednesday, December 7

迟来的祝福。The late wishes

今天早上睁开眼睛,无意中看到你的照片。
Morning, when I opened my eyes, I accidentally saw your photo.

"哎呀!我昨天居然忘了!"
"Ah! I forgot about it yesterday!"

我的天啊!十一年了,我第一次忘记祝你生日快乐。
OMG! 11th year, it's the first time I forget your birthday.

我在这里祝福你吧~~
I will wish you here, then.

生日快乐哦~~ 阿信。
Happy Birth Day, Ashin.


36岁了。
36th birthday.

对!你没有看错,这个看起来象18岁的家伙其实已经36岁了,可以去骗小妹妹了。
Ya! You are looking at the correct number, this fellow whom looks like 18 years old is actually 36 years old, he can go and cheat the young girls liao. xP

十一年了,我还是一样的爱着你(们?)
I still love you (you all?) at the 11th years.

Saturday, December 3

Oh... It's December.



Hello, everyone.
How's life?
I am kinda busy here... My holidays almost fill with plants, insects and soil?
YES! School project! ISH you! =[
YOU ruined my holidays!
And school homework... on the process... I think. =X
And I need time to study and play!
Yes! You get it, play.
Who don't want to play, enjoy and have fun during holidays? =D
But... I don't think I get a lot of fun doing my school Bio project.
Ok, maybe I get... a bit... But not fully enjoy.

Dear butterflies and dragonflies,
I hate you! Freaking hate you! When I want to catch you, you all flied away.
When I give up, you all fly around me.
What do you want from me? What do you want from me? *singing*
ISH you!

 x x x x x x x

Ok, I think I should stop all the complains, if not it will be an endless post.
Well, It's December.
I can't wait for Christmas... I like the environment of the Christmas.
It's nice, romantic, lovely and sweet.
And I hope to get something as Christmas present also.

Talk about present , SOMEONE still Owe me MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT hor? =X

I hope that December will be a better month for me... And I want some sweet memories!

Wednesday, November 30

逃


夜,蒙盖这个世界。
脸上的笑容也被遮住了,很好。
这样,我就不用一直在自我保护了。
心,被掏空似的,感觉不到自己的心跳。
疯了?
或许,希望。
趁现在,逃到没人认识的地方去。
在那里,尽情的做自己。
想睡的时候睡,想笑的时候笑,想哭的时候哭...
暂时的逃离,不算过分吧?

或许我真的累了,好想好好的睡一觉,然后从此长眠。

Monday, November 28

To My Love♥



I knew you since I was 7, I had fall in love with you from the first time when I saw you.
And now, it's like 12 years from our first met and I still love you.
My love for you keep increasing year per year, month per month and day per day.
I can't stop loving you.

I Love You, from the deep of my heart.
And I will still love you until the end of my life.
♥♥♥

Happy Birthday, Monster.♥




Friday, November 25

About Her♥ [14th November 2011]

At 14th November 1992, she was born.
She was small and tiny, but now she was big and old.
She grows older every second, which everyone does.
She loves chocolates, manga, her mother, her friends... I mean true friends and also her life.
 Oh... And she loves May Day.
Even though she was quiet emo on the past few days, but she knows that she can't keep wasting her time on emo-ing.
So, she changes her mind and wish to be happier everyday.

She wish that she could be happier everyday.
She wish that she could be healthier everyday.
She wish that she could try her best to do her best.

And...
She wish herself a Happy Birthday.

Next year, should be a better year. =]



Tuesday, November 22

*Turn on Radio* *Press Paly* Let's rock the house down!

From my previous post, you can see that I am trying hard to be happy.
Ya.. I am... Until now, I am still trying very very hard to let myself cool down and happy.
Today, I pissed off... by you... Honestly,  I am bit disappointed...
Trying hard to cool down, but failed... I think...
Now, I am not really angry with you, but I am not satisfied with you.
Fine, after I wake up on tomorrow morning, I should be fine.

Well, I brought this MayDay's movie song tracks disc yesterday... Wait... it's 20.11.2011. Not yesterday.
I keep playing the whole disc non-stop to cheer myself up... Does it help?
Ya... It helps a bit... If you come and visit me now, you can see that I am listening to that disc with my head shaking and body moving.
So, it helps.
At least, when I am listening, I won't think back what happened, especially the bad ones.
I mean, you can't really think/ recall/ think back something when your head is shaking like phyco, right? 
Even though I don't know how to dance at all, at least I can move my body...
[DON'T ask me to put video here, I don't want to be one of the jokes... =X]

One of my ways to be happy... I think.
So.. *turn on the radio* *Play the disc* *Rock You* >XD


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